Nov 3, 2005
a whole series of actually good days. who knew that could happen. i'm hardly ever online anymore and i like it that way. when i have free time and nothing to do, i find something to do instead of just sitting online forever. i havent even been feeling that down lately. and the only time i've cried since saturday was the other day when i was really frustrated with school. i don't know if college is right for me. i'm gonna give it at least another semester though before i make that decision. because i imagine most freshmen hate college at first. i've been feeling pretty excited about most things. only at night do i get really bummed. i think that's just snuggle withdrawal? and sometimes i'll have really good dreams, about things that have happened before. its like my mind chooses to replay the best memories i have with jason every night. then i wake up and i'm on my couch with allie in my face and i get bummed. really bummed. i'm trying not to see you for awhile. because i know if i did i wouldnt be able to act like your ex-girlfriend and just seeing you would probably make me really sad. but its hard! so many funny things happen or i'll se something that i know you'd laugh at and i'll want to call and tell you about it. i miss my best friend.
posted by sarah 11:35 AM
