Aug 11, 2005
this is effed and not what i want. and now i'm sad. great. i want some god damned clarity. it feels like i'm in a fog. words ive heard so many times have lost all meaning. its like now all i hear is just a bunch of misplaced words that dont actually have definitions to them, they're just syllables. erg, did i just screw myself over? why didnt i just sign off line and go to bed. think about things later. god damn it. this isnt what i want at all. i dont want the good times to be over with you. fucking god damn. i need clarity. i need a friend. i wish i knew what to do. and i wish i didnt open my mouth before i knew i meant what i was going to say. i need someone to lean on. metaphorically i guess but really just literally. i need a shoulder to rest my head on. thats what i need.
posted by sarah 1:50 AM
