Jul 11, 2005
i woke up suddenly at 3:30 am with a weird feeling on my lips and the first thing i thought was "no more kisses". this is going to be so hard. i am going to miss so many things about him. but i cannot think like that. there's a reason we're not together anymore and missing him just comes with the territory. i have to focus on the things i wont miss. i wont miss having a boyfriend who didnt love or care about me. or at least not enough to treat me like i mattered. i cant cry about this anymore or think of things i could have done to make it better. i did what i could but some things are just out of my control. its really hard to see someone as they are when you know how they used to be. i wasnt being treated right and he knew it and didnt want to change. its best that its over. the worst thing is seeing a friend who used to have so much integrity actually want to lose it. i still cant understand that.
posted by sarah 3:47 PM
