May 28, 2005
chilly nights and warmer thighs
today was a really good day. me and katie got half of my room painted. its a nice pale warm yellow. i like it. im really excited about moving in with katie. our neighborhood is so cute and nice and i just like our house. it feels very homey. im going to finish painting on monday and try to get the bulk of my stuff moved in on monday as well. i got my hair cut today as well and i really like it. its shorter and cuter and i just like the way that it moves and bounces. i feel a little lighter, like theres been some weight lifted off my shoulders. me, katie, and briana went to whole foods and bought food to make dinner with. we grilled chicken and potatoes outside but katie used waaaaaaay too much lighter fluid and the chicken came out a little.... lighter fluid tasting. the potatoes took forever to cook and i think are probably just about done now. but it was fun. it was such a nice night out. its making me really excited for 3 months of beautiful summer nights. i feel really... just good today. optimistic. things are going to be ok, great even. i dont need to be with jason to be happy. i didnt before we were together and i dont after. i dont need any of it. i still know what i want though. but the chances of me getting it are probably less than 1%. so its not the excited kind of wanting. it is... but its also the feeling when you know it would take some miracle for what you want to materialize. like i want one of the new mustangs, but the chances of me getting my hands on that kind of money would mean winning the lottery or something. except this is much more than just a new car. i probably have a better chance with the lottery anyway.
posted by sarah 11:39 PM
