The Burdens of Being Upright

Jan 31, 2004

i'm not a jerk

its like being hit with a blunt object; it may hurt but at least it gets the point across.

posted by sarah 2:07 AM

Jan 27, 2004

Christians only have one spouse. This is called monotony.

i like the snow. but i dont like how it has me trapped in the house most of the time. that gets boring. i'm trying to think of where i'm at right now. this whole snow thing has me thrown all off balance. and i feel not myself. its ridiculous the things i let myself stress over. i was pulling my hair out trying to get my grades up last week. but, i dont even know why i bother. i mean.... all my grades were either a B or an A. so thats... amazing. why did it matter to me to bring Bs up to As. i know this is all completely uninteresting to read. but really i only write on here for me so whats it matter. some things are beginning to remind me of past happenings and that is so not what 2004 is all about. but its hard to have good times with all this snow and everything. i mean, last winter sucked so hard so its difficult to not associate winter with sadness and confusion/. even if i'm not sad or confused, i'll still make something up to be sad and confused about just because its snowing and i feel like i should be sad and confused. and this process makes me confused and then i get kind of sad because i'm so confused and i dont know whats going on. so winter has always been my downfall, making me feel cold and hopeless. but i swear not this time. 2004 is not about sadness or confusion. 2004 is about things being just the way i want them to be. i have accepted this. now everyone else needs to. because no matter how much i hate it, i need friends to be happy with. otherwise i'd just be a fool sitting alone somewhere. the internet is killing me. it pretends to make conversation easier but it only complicates things even more. and makes things even more confusing. things should be so simple. but somewhere they got off track. and now i feel like i havent talked to any of my friends in forever. cabbbin fevvvvver.

posted by sarah 11:40 PM

Jan 25, 2004

trick the kids into loving jesus

its been a pretty interesting weekend. last night carol played at this weeeeiiiird church in montgomery county. i have to say i was impressed by travis' stage presence. and +1000 scene points for sean for doing rim shots while that guy was yelling at kids for dancing. some girls flashed their boobies a bunch of times because they're sad and pathetic. and i really feel bad for them. (but of course i took a picture.) dont get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with boobies or with any nudity. but when you do it because you want attention from boys... thats just sad. i mean.... if thats your only way of impressing people.... read a book or something. anywho those girls are going to end up raped. you cant show your boobies to a room full of guys you dont know and expect it not to happen. i dont know, i'll stop my rambling. the rest of my weekend has been swell. i'm waiting for it to snow right now so i can go sledding. i dont know... it sucks when you want something you cant have. but.... thats just the way things are sometimes.

posted by sarah 3:02 PM

Jan 19, 2004

give her the tongue so she'll know you mean it

this weekend was really nice. let me try and get the days straight. on saturday i watched But i'm a cheerleader with angie and jason. it was kind of snowing/icing out. it was pretty. i liked the movie. its about this girl who gets sent to this camp to make her not gay. and its really funny and pretty and just has nice visuals and a pretty soundtrack. (you can tell i'm content when i dont put any thoughts into my adjectives.) picking out a movie is the hardest and longest process ever. ever. i think you could put me in a room with a group of guys and tell me to pick which one i'd have to live with for the rest of my life and i'd be quicker to decide then if you just stuck me in a blockbuster. "i want a movie that makes me think... 'that was nice.'" then on sunday we (we being everyone i know and their mother) watched the adventures of sebastion belle. i liked that movie. mainly just the kid's hair. ryan says it was a scenester movie. + 18 points for me for watching it! erin stumbled across katie's old livejournal from like 8th grade. its amazing. she only posted a few entries then forgot about it. so i decided to take it over. and it is now my livejournal that i will use so i can read peoples friends only posts. it is selloutwithme. today i hung out with katie and briana. and i had fun. sorry katie for being a big crampface. then later i went to the grocery store and jason came with me. it was a good time. and i love grocery stores for some reason. guhhhh. i dunno man, its hard to not be a goober.

posted by sarah 9:31 PM

Jan 18, 2004

dfgdsfg

2004. what a year. at least the first 18 days of it.

i dont even know what to write. because i dont even know what i feel.

i'm annoyed at work because people can be so catty and i'm just all around fed up with their dumbassery. and i'm sick of just... who knows. -- although i am having a good time. and i lovve my friends. but winter just does this to people. makes them want to be sad or complicated or something. and i dont even know. its pretty outside and i like things.

posted by sarah 2:37 AM

Jan 12, 2004

hoods up in '04

welp, there's not much i can do so i'm not going to worry too much. i'll divert my attention to roller skates. me and angie are each gonna get a pair and roll straight through this city. well this collection of cities that combine into my 'turf'. cant wait. to roller skate. so in health class today we had to look at slides of penises and ginas infected with STDs. it was all very sick, red, gooey, crusty, bumpy, swollen, and covered in sores. enough to make a person want to live in a bubble. i'm sure i've said it before and i'll say it again; boy am i glad i dont have chlamydia!

posted by sarah 11:34 PM

Jan 11, 2004

baby its 2004 and i love you hardcore

i am so amazing. i got my SAT scores back the other day and i got a 1250. woooo. dont you all just want to be my boyfriend now?

posted by sarah 10:44 PM

Jan 9, 2004

What is the meaning of life?

To defy, be passionate, and make use of hair products!

posted by sarah 12:09 AM

Jan 6, 2004

dont you feed me lines about some idealistic future your heart wont heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures

i am going to start going to a gym. i need to get in good ass-kickin shape. i think i'll wait a few more paychecks so i can get my bank account up to normal again before i go paying for a gym. its lacking ever since christmas.
my god, spanish class is the worst thing ever. i really really super hate it. all i do is play black jack on my phone which i should probably stop because it wears down my battery.

2004 is amaZING!

posted by sarah 11:27 PM

Jan 4, 2004

a little bored. a little restless. a little antsy. ........ a lotta antsy. school starts again tomorrow and i'm somewhat excited. its like a whole new year...... it is a whole new year.

posted by sarah 11:51 PM

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i have such big balls this year. like HUGE. really i'm just a bigger jerk and whenever my dad says something i tell him he's being ridiculous. but thats what 2004 is all about. not taking crap from no one. seriously though, for some reason i feel extremely great this year. like. i dont even know. its not even optimism, its more like..... this year is going to be great. not i hope it will be great. great great great. i dont know. i've drank too much caffeine today and i feel really wired and its hard to get my thoughts straight. even if things dont work out the way i would like them to. theres still so much. to. just. i dont even know

posted by sarah 1:24 AM

Jan 2, 2004

this is what 2004 is all about!!!

new years was a blast. a smash. a double whammy bash. aight. so it started like this. i went and got brianna, we went to erin's. later we left erin's and went to the party at callan's. there were tons of people there and it was some fun. then me and brianna decided to mosey on over to katie's (kevins) house. we had this whole elaborate plan to scare them with fireworks but the bees didnt make enough noise so they didnt even notice. alright, i took brianna home. then it was off to dennys. me, katie, kevin, sam, and sean feasted on dennys food. sean's sandwich had paper in it so he got it for free. some guy tried to recruit us in the army and we had a nice little chat about music. then jason, paul, and josh got there. by then, we had already been done eating but oh well. then ryan and christie got there and wouldnt you know it, ryan already has 2 points! i'm still at zero but just give me some time to muster some balls, i'll catch up. so i took sean home and on the way i got an oh-my-god-this-is-the-worst-feeling-ever-i-just-want-to-curl-up-and-die cramp. so i rushed him home then sped off to my own domicile. (domicile.. like that? improving vocabulary! thats what 2004 is all about!) later jason and paul came over and watched a movie with me. theeee eeeeeeennnnnnnd!

or is it.... just the.. beginning!

cheesy writing... this is what 2004 is all about!!!

posted by sarah 12:12 AM