Dec 16, 2003
theres blood on my nice new jeans
well sir, i dont feel like much of myself lately. i find myself looking in the mirror to remind me of who i am. i try to ruin everything for everyone and i dont know why. its like i'm trying to protect them, but, i dont know, i'm just so tired. and overwhelmed. and i'm doing much worse than i should be in school. and its not that i want to please my parents or anything. its actually important to me. and its not just that. everything. i just feel so much dumber lately. and then i reach for the phone and i dont know who to call. (ghostbusters?) like i have these friends in my mind but in my mind they're more than they are and i dont know if this makes sense but. i dont know. i dont feel like myself. and i dont remember what myself felt like.
posted by sarah 11:57 PM
