The Burdens of Being Upright

Feb 25, 2003

more than one man has gone to sleep calmly in the evening not to wake up again in the morning

i think katie may have just forshadowed my death.... i dont want to die yet.

seeinstarz35: you're not dead, right?
seeinstarz35: i had a dream you died
seeinstarz35: and i woke up really sad and confused
seeinstarz35: and it was really creppy
seeinstarz35: from the cold
seeinstarz35: and when i found your dead body, your ghost was sitting down holding your body and just stroking your face and it was creepy
seeinstarz35: and you were wearing your burgandy hoodie
seeinstarz35: i think you and angie were going on a boating trip and you fell off and swam to shore and you swam to shore but the shore was snowy and cold and you died
seeinstarz35: and when we foudn you, for some reason your ghost kept living and was talking to us
seeinstarz35: me, eric, and kevin went boating and i was the only one that knew you were missing and i found you
seeinstarz35: but in the dream i asked eric if he would be upset if you died and he said sarcastically "i'd be pretty pissed off"...that was kinda funny
seeinstarz35: i was so sad this morning when i woke up
seeinstarz35: and after you died we went to shoppers and i think we bought bombs
seeinstarz35: cos for somereason your ghost never went away
seeinstarz35: it was you wearing the hoodie and jeans but you were just a little bit see through

posted by sarah 9:16 PM

Feb 23, 2003

surrendering the night at 8pm

so my february, my supposed kick-ass month, is about to end with mixed reviews. so far its been... alright. but just "alright" is not what i was aiming for. its time to just exhale and never bother inhaling again. whatever that means.
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BOOBS!

posted by sarah 1:20 AM

Feb 22, 2003

with so much drama in the lbc its kinda hard bein snoop d o double g y......

i meant to post these a long time ago but i forgot because i'm stupid. see, when me and kara were taking drivers ed together it was extremely boring so we passed the time with a gangsta rap battle. as you'll soon see, i got mad skills. but kara dont.

kara:
sarah i'm so hot i knock your socks off
you see a guy and offer to jack him off
you walk down the hall shakin your hips
bitch no one wants that coochi, smelling like cheeze nips
sarah you're a slut, you're a whore
you know what i mean, dont got to say no more

me:
you needs stop smoking those cigs or your growth they will stunt
you'll go to take a piss and smoke will come out yo cunt
call me a slut? you ignant little bitch
last time you sneezed, you made my nuts itch.
i'm tryin to say you got STDs,
given them out to whoever you please,
dont bother payin no fees,
just spreadin disease.
what you need is a trip to the free clinic,
get yo cunt nice and clean so i can stick my dick in it.

kara:
bitch i'll slam you on the ground
smack you with my dick
chew you up, spit you out like a toothpick
STDs? trick they aint mine
shut your whorin mouth or i'll hit you with a 9
cap you bitch ass, keep talkin trash
if i see you on the street you wont last.

kara again:
gonna get my colt45, pistol whip your ass
fishin for ya, gonna catch on the street like some bass
trying to fight, bitch you cant beat me
gonna smack you with my balls til you cant hold your pee
man i love your mom, call her on the phone
when i'm tryin to get some ass, gotta get that dome
see you on the street corner struttin your stuff
let me stick it to ya, i'll give ya 10 bucks
you think you're real cool, think you're hot shit
man i'll dick slap you to china, cause i aint havin it!
so listen up sarah to the purpose of my rhyme
i'm telling your whoring ass that you're running out of time.

me:
girl, you better recognize,
and realize,
we sick of all your lies,
no need to dramatize,
yo cunt is full of flies.
cuz you be actin all hoey,
takin calls from john while you given head to joey.
takin it like a bitch as they crap on, yo dirty face.
bitch i'd fuck you with a strap-on, then spray you with mace.
you swallow their cum and then ask them to pay
i'd throw a dime in your face, you're the world's worst lay!
you pulled out all this kinky shit even after i paid.
only guy more nasty than you is the priest you fucked in second grade. fool!

DISCLAIMER: if you were offended... then well.... good. HA!

posted by sarah 2:04 AM

Feb 20, 2003

blogger confuses me with all its non-working riff-raff.

ps: nerpal is pretty.

posted by sarah 11:15 PM

Feb 17, 2003

i tell you stage dives make me feel more alive than coded messages in slowed down songs

friday---> school, work, babysitting, rob ryan sean and lauren picked me up and we went to dennys but there was a long wait to be seated (weird i know) so we went to platos, went to angie's and slept over, went home saturday afternoon.

saturday---> after getting home from angie's i just lazed around the house, probably took a shower, then a little after 8 angie and her mom picked me up, we went to new deal cafe, then saw chicago at the old greenbelt theater (my 3rd time seeing chicago), then they took me home

sunday---> woke up at 4, lazed around the house, went to glenndale golf course and went sledding with eric matt almond kevin and katie, went back to kevin's and watched simpsons, came home, lazed about.

fun weekend. chicago is such a great movie. i wish i lived in the 1920s. astrology is my new love.

posted by sarah 1:47 AM

Feb 13, 2003

you choose, you use, you love

is it just me or is the whole world boring these days? kids with broken backs letting out sighs. ANYTHING to interrupt the mundane task of breathing.
in other words- we want fun.

posted by sarah 11:17 PM

Feb 12, 2003

lord knows it would be the first time

i dont want to go to war. i dont want to buy a gas mask or nuclear attack kit "just in case". i dont want to cringe everytime i hear a plane fly overhead. i dont want to second-guess going to dc. i dont want it. its odd that bush's war to perserve our freedom has us living on edge, color-coding our fear, worrying about choking on mustard gas or anthrax. politics will never make any sense to me.

in other news, i almost got into a car accident tonight while i was driving down greenbelt rd. but i didnt.

/// it's all just a joke. thats how you keep sane. everything is just one big game. school. friends. family. work. love. life. everything. its all a game.\\\

posted by sarah 12:04 AM

Feb 6, 2003

...and pain surrounds innocence ...and death surrounds heaven

i got a 3.83 on my report card! i managed to threaten a teacher into changing my grade from a C to an A. i told him that if i didnt have an A on my report card i was holding him accountable and he actually gave me an A. i'm awesome! my only B was in biology. i need to bring it up this quarter so i can beat norman. another reason why i'm awesome: i drove again tonight.... in the snow! and i didnt hit anyone. well i almost hit this one guy turning into walmart but it was his fault because i had the right of way. so eff him. i'm out.

posted by sarah 11:29 PM

Feb 3, 2003

I RULE!

i drove all the way from hilltop to my house in the dark in our big conversion van! i'm awesome!

posted by sarah 10:03 PM

Feb 1, 2003

in sin in boston

and where is my muse? my reason for documenting? gone. still here, just not important anymore. as all things are and will soon be. that high school tendency. to exaggerate. then forget. then remember. then regret. its february. and you know what that means. its time to be happy. but i'm not happy. the days are so rushed and in fastforward. i lay down at night and feel all my energy begin to settle for the first time in hours. i need to just. slow down. and enjoy. and spend! i need to go somewhere and spend way too much money. on. on. on clothes! and cds! and posters! and other frivolous things. then i wont feel dumb about work. because my money will reclaim its value. and then things will make sense. tomorrow; shopping.

posted by sarah 1:53 AM