The Burdens of Being Upright

Nov 30, 2002

creating false scenarios

i'm sure there's an answer out there somewhere but sadly its burried under miles of concrete from some shopping mall or interstate. so we're left here with just the question. thousands of people standing around looking puzzled. we all go through the same cycle. is there a reason why most end up the same way? a reason why the elderly sit in pews every sunday? christianity.... it seems more like a rural practice. you rely on mother nature for everything. nature is something you cant control and will never fully understand, despite what it may say in the text books. sure you can plant a seed, but no man can actually make a tree. you cant control droughts or tornados or floods. its easier to grasp the concept of god when you're so accustomed to relying on an intangible embodiment that you cannot control. but in the city, where the only sign of nature is a tiny weed struggling to break through sidewalk, its not so easy. you rely on mankind for survival. so what if there's a drought? there's a store on every corner selling all the water you need. everything is controlled, routine, orderly. people drive by and then out of your conciousness forever. only those who disrupt your system are remembered, and even then not for long. how then, in a world where all you need is sold to you by a man behind a cash register and flashing lights dictate where to go next, could a god exist? those who do stop to think about it never follow through, what importance does god have when you're late for work? how can you marvel at god's glory when everything you see is manmade? and if you'll never know, why bother thinking about it? why bother searching for the ultimate answer..... if there even is one.

posted by sarah 1:19 AM

Nov 27, 2002

take a chance, pee your pants

(thank you chris mcgooken for the title)

guess who opened up for the strokes? thats right, jimmy fallon! i would have been happier if it was tracy morgan but still, i was in the same room as someone on SNL. the strokes were so great. theres not much more to say about that....

i wrote in my real journal last night for the first time in months. i was so proud of myself.

"it aint your booty, its your beauty"

so i am in love with all the brick row houses in dc and one day i am going to restore them all and be happy...............
i miss paul.

posted by sarah 1:46 AM

Nov 25, 2002

5318008

MeTheMisanthrope: i just spilt diet coke all over the computer table.
thisisnotelmike: why diet ?
MeTheMisanthrope: addiction
thisisnotelmike: to diet ? but its so gross
MeTheMisanthrope: so are cigarettes but people get addicted to those

i just beat eric in a game of monopoly. i had over $15,000..... he had about $35. katie and kevin were playing too but they gave up and left earlier. so yeah...... what........ I'M AWESOME!!!

yes this is the campaign slithered entrails in the cargo bay a new turd in the vastness hollow vaccuum check the oxygen tanks they hibernate as they kiss the ground pucker up and kiss the asphalt now tease this amputations tinted larynx should have access now get away get awaaaaaaay

oh, that^ was at the drive in, or at least what it sounds like they're saying (plankton memories mummified inside a treeeeeeeee) i know those arent the real words but these are funner.

what is it with me this month? i have barely written in here. ramble ramble ramble. so life is sweet. i dont know, i feel........ stable? like if someone came over and pushed me down i'd be able to get back up again. or just mix metaphores. one of the kids in my class at work, ben, told me today that robin is batman's boyfriend. and mickey mouse has a boyfriend named arnold. see, minnie mouse isnt mickey's girlfriend, she's just his sister. i love the innocence of kindergardners.

tomorrow i get to go see the strokes with kevin and katie...... and you dont.

posted by sarah 11:11 PM

Nov 12, 2002

error: couldn't determine journal from arguments

who the crap am i? i'm constantly trying to forget the trivial things in life and only worry about whats important. but i dont even know what is important anymore. school?friends?work?music?family?shows?religion? i'm trying to get my priorities straight but i'm not sure what should come first. everyone has a different opinion about what i should care about the most. is it whatever makes me happy? but happiness is so fickle and fleeting, its hard to say what really makes me happy these days. should i bother getting stressed about school? supposedly good grades will mean success later in life. but should i let grades consume me? i think not. should i keep my job so i can earn money even though it leaves me exausted? i guess so. should i just say to hell with it all and spend more time with friends. i dont know. friend is such a loose word its hard to say who's a friend and who's just someone you know. oh well. i guess i'll just forget about it and continue doing whatever it is that i'm doing.

posted by sarah 10:37 PM

Nov 5, 2002

EVERYBODY DANCE!!!

my computer hasnt been letting me go to websites lately so i havent updated this in awhile. uhhh.... over the weekend i went to three springs. it snowed. it was ok. not as fun as it has been in the past. it would have been better if a lot more people went. it was a little weird. when people were talking it was just..... it was like i knew exactly what they were going to say before they said it. like a broken record. anyway..... BOOBS!

posted by sarah 2:45 PM