The Burdens of Being Upright

Oct 26, 2002

goober

i saw jackass last night. me, paul, matt, kara, and rob saw it. we were supposed to see it with kevin, katie, and eric too but they got to the theater before us and bought tickets. by the time we got there, that show was sold out so we had to wait for the next one. it was really funny. i'm just going to stop there so i dont ruin it for anyone who didnt see it yet. and i had a really horrible scary dream last night. it went like this:
katie and kevin had bought a house together and had just moved in so they were having a little housewarming party. katie's and kevin's families were both there and all of their friends were too. so i look around the house for awhile and talk to different people. i'm sitting in one room talking to katie for a while. then i get up and go into the kitchen to get a drink or something and i trip over eric's dead body. ahh. then i realize that everyone is dead. katie says that she killed them all and now she's going to kill me and she lunges at me but i pick up a knife off the counter and stab her. so she dies. then all the lights go out and i cant get any of them to go back on. i try to get out of the house but its dark and i keep tripping over dead bodies. thats all i remember of the dream. i woke up and felt bad for dreaming of killing katie. (sorry about that katie.)

posted by sarah 2:10 PM

Oct 24, 2002

yeah an airbag can save my life when my lungs collapse from methane gas from melting ice caps....

i started work today. i'm working at the aftercare at holy trinity. i work in the kindergarden class. i spent the day tying shoelaces, reading stories, playing duck duck goose, and playing with that model magic stuff. it wasnt too bad. (why did all of those sentences start with the letter i?)

so they think they caught the snipers which i couldnt be happier about. i'm glad its before halloween anyway, i would hate for kids to have to miss out on trick or treating because of this psycho. maxey mentioned something about the county lifting the lock down tomorrow. thats good i guess.

this blogger could not be anymore trivial.

posted by sarah 10:21 PM

Oct 20, 2002

it's like jurassic park without the dinosaurs

dude, somebody coned me. (in a serious voice.)

a 12th person was shot the other night by this sniper fellow. everyone is so apathetic about it. this should be terrifying but in this world its easier to worry about what britney spears will wear to the grammys than a psycho with a rifle. it's sad but i get more upset about the simpsons being cancelled because of the newsbreak than 9 people dying. perhaps i'm heartless. or maybe just desensitized. either way the only thing i feel is that there is no room in my life right now for mass murder. hmph. on a lighter note...

i had a fun 3-day weekend. i saw van wilder which was pretty funny. and the attic expeditions which at first made no sense... then started to come together a little... then had a weird horrible ending that confused everyone completely. the only thing good about the movie is the dillinger escape plan song in it. well, i have school in a few hours so this ends............ now.

posted by sarah 11:37 PM

Oct 15, 2002

you know the feeling

i had a crappy day. the whole school was taking psats today which didnt really bother me. but halfway into the second section of the test i start feeling really sick. i try to just wait it out hoping that in a few minutes i'll feel better. but i dont. so i bring my test up to the teacher and say "i need to go to the nurse." because we're still in this lock down business i have to be escorted down there. i threw up a little in the bathroom at the nurse so my mom comes and picks me up. then i went home and fell asleep. and now i have a cold or allergies or something and it sucks. i hate being sick. hopefully i'll feel better by tomorrow. even more crappy is that the car broke down tonight. me and eric drove up to barnes & nobles so he could get a book for school and when we were going to leave the van started jack knifing and wouldnt start. so i called my mom and she called a tow truck and then her and mrs. mudd came and picked us up since the van is the only car we have right now. so...... crap. at least i finished cleaning my room today. lets i hope i dont mess it up again by tomorrow.

posted by sarah 11:42 PM

Oct 13, 2002

"uh... may.... ZING!"

so i saw bane last night. in a word, orgasmic. i always forget how much admiration and respect i have for that band until i put in one of their cds. and then i just fall into a dream-like state of ecstacy from the brilliance of their music..... (meaning: bane rocks my socks off.) i think katie's the only who understands what i'm talking about. anyway, that was a great show. afterwards we went to dennys.... all 21 of us. i had a boca burger (i'm not vegetarian but they taste better than hamburgers) and fries but i gave half of my fries to kenny. shirley is a great waitress. she's weird, but she puts up with a lot of our crap. after dennys, paul came over and watched american gladiators and when buildings collapse with me. then he attacked me and it was nice. the end.

posted by sarah 11:49 PM

Oct 10, 2002

swallow, choke, and die

i have a headache.

2 more days until bane!!!

posted by sarah 10:11 PM

Oct 7, 2002

madness

so this is how its going to be? every few days hear an announcement of yet another person shot by crazy mcsniper? i guess i should be a little more scared or upset that a 13 year old kid almost died this morning within a mile from where i was sitting doing math problems, but........ i'm not. i don't really feel anything more than "this sucks". oh well. i guess i should be more scared that an area i have past by almost every day of my life has housed a man with a rifle but........ i'm numb. i dont know...... i'm desensitized to it all. yeah, i could be shot and killed tomorrow just walking down the street but there's nothing i can do about it. there's no sense living in fear. i'd rather not die, i like being alive, but if i do die well......... ok, then i die. there's no use getting worked up about what i cannot control.

posted by sarah 11:01 PM

Oct 6, 2002

end begin end beginendbeginendbeginendbgeingendgbiengbdine

i dont want to feel this grey in october of all months. sundays always put me in a bad mood. that dreadful transition from the weekend to the week. oh well. i never realized it before, how people control my moods. how their energy replaces mine. compassion? i've said these words before. oh well.
i'm looking forward to this week, to seeing bane on saturday, and a boy who i need to see more of. it's supposed to be colder, maybe we'll start experiencing this fall weather i love so much. ........................................ and you, thanks for the lie.

posted by sarah 7:40 PM

Oct 5, 2002

you assume on your own

i had a strange dream last night. it was all from the point of view of a barber. i was this tall, thin middle-aged man with brown hair. every time i would cut someone's hair they'd start yelling at me because i didnt do it right. and everyone who came into the barber shop was one of my friends but they still yelled at me because they didnt see me, they just saw a pathetic old man. i remember thinking in the dream "wow, my friends are dicks." weird.

i've been thinking a lot lately about religion. i read this article in time magazine about abraham and his effect on christianity, judaism, and islam. all three of those religions claim him as their father. but yet most of the wars that have gone on in the last 2000 years and still go on today exist between those three religions. people can be so ridiculous. my outlook on religion and god and evolution and humanity and everything is changing. i'll elaborate more when my thoughts arent so scattered. not that it matters what i think anyway. i dont know why i even bother to put a name and a defintion on god. it is much too complex for me to ever understand. so no matter what conclusion i come up with, it will be wrong.

posted by sarah 4:44 PM

Oct 1, 2002

FAKE! diary of an impostor

posted by sarah 10:41 PM