Feb 17, 2002
stab yourself in the leg
the path i thought that led to god was really the path to self-destruction. somewhere along the way i got caught up in trying to better myself and lost sight of the reason why. i had religion but i didnt have faith. i confused the two and thought they were the same. religion is not something i want. religion is excluding everyone that thinks differently. religion is a set of rules. i dont want your "holier than thou" attitude. i dont want to hear your conviction in something that you cannot prove. yes, this is a gamble. yes, i may be wrong. yes, i know all these things. but i cant look at this world and think that it was created by chance. my complex life is not a result of two planets colliding billions of years ago. in order to rebuild my life, i first must destroy it. which is hard. i think this is the beginning of coming to an understanding. and i have hope for the future.
posted by sarah 10:12 PM
