Dec 29, 2001
i don't belong here
yesterday i was bored and alone. katie had the flu or something, erin was out shopping, and lindsay's in florida. i decided to call erin's cell and complain to her about my discontent with being trapped in my house all day with no one to keep me company. luckily erin was on her way back from greenbelt or something so her and diana came and picked me up. we went to kohls, wal mart, mcdonalds, then back to erin's. we went to mcdonalds b/c erin and diana wanted those fruit and yogurt parfait things. this is the jist of what the brilliant mcdonalds employees were saying to eachother:
"you know how to make a fruit and yogurt parfait?"
"man, i dunno how to make one"
"well i dunno how to make one"
"just look at the picture! a layer of fruit, yogurt, granola, more yogurt."
after about 10 minutes they gave us the fruit and yogurt parfaits. those were the sorriest looking things i have ever seen. the layers were all messed up. not that it matters, you're just gonna mix it up anyway. but i still found it funny that it was complicated for someone to make one.
when we got to erin's i played pac man quest on erin's playstation for awhile. then i realized that all i had eaten that day was a bowl of rice krispies so i raided erin's fridge. she had some left-over chinese food. mmm.... that was good. um, yadda yadda... we ended up staying up until 4 am talking. it was nice, i got a lot of things of my chest. then erin fell asleep but i wasnt tired from those 3 pepsi's i drank so i stayed up playing pac man quest again. that game is too fun. i wish erin would get a memory card though, everytime i died i had to start all over again. i guess the game had me in a trance b/c the next time i looked at the clock it was 8:30 am. i decided it was about time i go to sleep. so i did... zzzz.... the next thing i know it's 10:30 and erin's waking me up. wow, 2 whole hours of sleep. her and her dad gave me a ride home and i had the intention of going back to sleep but for some reason i couldnt so i took a shower instead. then.... yadda yadda.... my dad and sister were yelling at eachother b/c my sister thought my dad made the soup wrong or something. it sounded pretty pathetic and the yelling was stressing me out so i went to giant with my mom... i got home, msn was being a dick and not working. everyone was getting all hot and bothered about it. i fixed it b/c everyone else is useless and cant do it themselves. my parents were arguing earlier b/c my mom bought french bread instead of italian bread and my dad got mad or something. i was sitting on the computer playing snood and this is the jist of what i heard:
"i'm tired of your shit!"
"maybe we should just get a separation!"
"yeah, and i'd get the house!"
"like hell you would!"
"just give me the chance, i'll call my lawyer and get the papers ready!"
too bad those are just empty threats. this whole staying together for the kids thing is doing more harm than good. we all know your plans of separating once i finish high school. thats shit. i wish you two would just split up right now. i love you both, but not when you're together. you dont get along, ever. and i'm sick of breaking up your petty fights and having to hear you bitch about your marraige to me. dad, i dont want to hear all the shit you say about mom. mom, i dont want to hear all the shit you say about dad. all this yelling really stresses me out, you have no idea. whats even worse is seeing how you've both given up. you dont live anymore. you're just waiting to die. this is your life! this is the only chance you're gonna get! i want you to be happy. i wish life had more to offer you two. god i hope i dont end up like you.
song: say it aint so ~ weezer
posted by sarah 9:18 PM
