Dec 14, 2001
Broken
erin reminds me so much of how i used to be. she's such a great person, i love her. i'm worried for her though. i know the road she's on, i've been down it. it doesnt end happily. i wish i could save her from all that shit. i see my friends hurting and my heart breaks for them. i cant stand all this unnecessary pain and anger and hurting. i want to be away from it. sometimes i long to not feel anything. to be emotionless seems like a dream.
i'm broken.
no matter what it seems that i always end up depressed by evening. this is crap. i want this day to be over. tomorrow could be better.
"the scene" is annoying me. i went in search of a place where you were accepted for who you are and not what you wear and who you're friends with and what you listen to. i thought i had found it. but it turns out to be shit. just like everything else, a huge dissapointment. it's just another extension of high school, it has the cliques, gossip, rumors, back-biting, all that shit. honestly i cant tell which is worse anymore.
fuck it.
song: the moon is down ~ further seems forever
posted by sarah 9:01 PM
