Dec 31, 2005
i think theres something wrong with me. because everything certainly isnt alright. every few months, ill get really depressed. and not just upset or sad because thats just an emotional reaction to something that happens. but i could have a perfectly good day then one night every few months i'll just get so depressed. i won't be able to sleep and all i'll be able to think about is how every single thing in my life and my life in general is just crap. and at the time i'll say to myself "this is so stupid. i'm just being over-dramatic. in the morning i'll realize how stupid all these thoughts are." but i cant control it. i'll just feel like complete shit for the entire night. until finally i fall asleep, and in the morning i wake up and think "what was i so upset about?" this has been going on for close to ten years now. but lately its been getting more and more frequent. i dont know what to do since nothing ever triggers it, it just happens out of the blue. and no matter how great or bad my life is at the time, it will still happen. i dont know much about depression and whether it can be passed on. i know after my mom had a miscarriage she was really depressed for years. and she'd just lay on the couch napping and watching tv all day. and i mean all day. and i know her dad was depressed a lot later in his life and would just sit in his one recliner all day. i dont know.
posted by sarah 3:21 AM
