Aug 2, 2002
to love and be loved
school starts in 24 days. i'm neither upset nor excited about it. i cant wait until summer's over. i hate this hot muggy weather. and autumn is so beautiful and perfect. summer has been good. i'm happy. let go of paranoia and everything will be so much more enjoyable. but fear is so exciting in its own wonderful-terrible way. (i know you've been hurting but i've been waiting to be there for you))))
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negative people, negative energies, negative everything---cause so much stress. give me a migraine. lies meant to spare lives induce confusion. depression. complaining annoyance. the wise ones are too naive to notice~the fools keep on trying. and you said..yousaid..why can i never remember what you've said/? ||||||||||| i cant type anything that would explain what i'm trying to say. }{}{}{}{{}}{{}}{{}}{}{}{}{{}}{}{}{}{{{}}{{}{
youdontdeservegoodbye/. /\/\\//\\//\\//\\//\\//\\//\its that feeling that everyone in the room speaks a different language. that you're alone.that understanding doesnt exist between mere mortals. that feeling of insignificance>unworthy>insatiable.unwanted. you've forsaken the first two people to see your face. the first and only to love you. that body you hate is who you are. your past, your present., you future. you got your life, the color of you eyes, the way you smile, from them. and you'd throw it all away for a later curfew? freedom is great but it has its cost. the hand you call control is only trying to guide you. but you;'d swat it away and complain about it on a computer that it worked to pay for? _"the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down_"be you, be free, makeyour own choices, live your own life but remember where it came from. remember who created you/...... dont throw it away. dont scold someone for being just as confused as you are. you created that facade of omniscience, not him. forget it. the only thing that makes you unique is your fingerprints.
posted by sarah 10:26 PM
